| Outshined- Soundgarden What a fucking good song |
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Outshined- Soundgarden What a fucking good song |
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yeah so i havent done anything in the last few weeks. I got my senior picture about 2 weeks ago so i get my proofs soon and pick what pictures i like and dont like. Yeah rachel went to SC so i havent seen her since wendsday but o well its kinda nice getting away and doin my own thing for a change. Um i work alot so im never home for 2 weeks im working about 70 hours about so i should get a nice paycheck sooner or later. Tomorrow i got work till 3 and a party on a boat at 9 so that should be somewhat fun hangin out with ariel since she is pretty sweet. she likes to mess around with me at work and stuff and get me all wet.. bastard.. lol but yeah emily trapp is the hottest most cool girl ever..
6th months... Sept. 6th woo first day of school!
Cant wait to go back with all the gay sophmore drama i get caught into. somehow ill get stuck in the middle but who the fuck cares eh? lol im canadian
Um . Fuck
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
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| She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart |
[29 Jul 2005|12:25am] |
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Aneurysm- Nirvana |
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Yeah i dont know why i am updating again but.. I am
Ughh nothing has happen in the last time i updated execpt with rachel and her beauty thing. i dont really know anything else other than rachel and i fight every day. But i had hockey to nights in a row and today was the last game and we lost but it doesnt matter.. but the 2nd to last game i hit so many people it was funny and got a penailty for one of them cause i nailed the kid like no other. Rachel and emily went to that game but maybe watched 10 mins. Why even go to watch it that long? No idea but i was mad cause i tried hitting people and i hit the post like 10 times but rachel wouldnt know that cause she didnt watch. I try to do good things but looks like that isnt good enough.
O and someone hit my car and it dented there whole front of the car and i didnt get a scatch at all. she didnt have her headlights on and i pulled out and she hit the back of my explorer so yeah and then found out she lived near me in oakhurst.. Lol that was kind of funny.
Senoir pictures commin up too i might post them if you want to see em.
I don't care if I'm old
I don't mind if I don't have a mind
Get away from your home
I'm afraid of a ghost
Even if you have
Even if you need
I don't mean to stare
We don't have to breed
We can plant a house
We can build a tree
I don't even care
We could have all three
She said
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16 ♥ Knows I love Rachel |
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[05 Jul 2005|08:53pm] |
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I am acucally going to start writing meaningful things in here. Maybe a good song here and there only if they are good ones. No more of the whiny bullshit i used to write complaining about shit and everything else. I might just make a new LJ anyways well see.
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8 ♥ Knows I love Rachel |
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| Dieing |
[28 Jun 2005|09:10am] |
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I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain
You know you're right
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[27 Jun 2005|05:37pm] |
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My Wave |
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MY WAVE
Take, if you want a slice
If you want a piece
If it feels alright
Break, if you like the sound
If it gets you up
If it brings you down
Share, if it makes you sleep
If it sets you free
If it helps you breathe
Don't come over here
And piss on my gate
Save it just keep it
Off my wave
Cry, if you want to cry
If it helps you see
If it clears your eyes
Hate, if you want to hate
If it keeps you safe
If it makes you brave
Pray, if you want to pray
If you like to kneel
If you like to lay
Don't come over here
And piss on my gate
Save it just keep it
Off my wave
Keep it off my wave
Keep it off my wave
Keep it off my wave
My wave
Cry, if you want to cry
If it helps you see
If it clears your eyes
Hate, if you want to hate
If it keeps you safe
If it makes you brave
Take, if you want a slice
If you want a piece
If it feels alright
Don't come over here
And piss on my gate
Save it just keep it
Off my wave
Keep it off my wave
Keep it off my wave
My wave
This song describes how I feel and i love that part
when its say "hate, if you wanna hate,if it makes you safe, if it makes
you brave." sure you can hate me but i dont care,
just leave me the hell alone. people can hide behind how coward they
are and waste thier time trying to make your life a living hell. we
live in a selfish world these days, you would think people are ocupied
with thinking about themselfs listening to thier own voice that they
even have time in their "busy" schedule to judge you. this is my song
because it tells all of you who want to try to rain on my parade, fuck
off because ive got who i am and you'll never ruin that. "keep it off
my wave"
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9 ♥ Knows I love Rachel |
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[20 Jun 2005|12:36am] |
I caught a glimpse of something.
I've looked for it ever since.
I went around the world, searched in all the shadows.
And there is something out there in the darkness, something terrifying, something that will not stop until it gets revenge.
Me...
Now you must journey inwards... to what you really fear... it's inside you... there is no turning back. The will is everything. If you make yourself more than just a man, if you devote yourself to an ideal, you become something else entirely.
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[18 Jun 2005|10:51am] |
Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can't you see
That I'm drowning in a pool of misery
I'm always afraid
That you're gone
Away from me
I'm always afraid
That you're lost in somebody
I'm always afraid
That you're gone
Away from me
I'm always afraid
That you're lost
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[30 May 2005|09:32am] |
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You know your right... Nirvana |
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The more we fight..
The more we argue..
The more we yell, scream, and lie...
The more I start to question
Why am i still here?
Why do i put up with it?
How come no one else is like this?
How come we act diffrent then we used too?
What if she goes back to her old ways?
What if she gets hurt doing it?
The more I question the farther apart we go
What if..
These two words just make me want to let go.
The more i start thinking about that
The more i dislike who you were
Regrets are things of the past
If you dont regret them then
Why arent you the same person as you where before?
Something must you of wanted to change
Unless you didnt change and doing the one thing
Putting on the "fake" mask
If you really want to be there person you were before
Be my guest
Do all the things of your past
Go ahead and turn the button on
Just think of all that your missing out
I think you are happier being there than now
So.. Go
By all means go
Thats were most of your friends are anyways
I rather not bring it up about the past
But how come it always comes up?
Your "friends" arent as nice as they seem to be
And you know that
Just like at Lunch what happens you can already guess
Just know that you can go back to your parting days
And I will just give up and look for someone
Who can care about life and not throw it away on stupid things
You even told me you dont want to do any of those things
since of certian problems
But if you really want to
You are just hurting yourself in the long run
Thats why there is always a trust issue
You honestly cant tell me that there is no reason why
some people dont trust you.
Ill even tell you
Call me up and ill explain it to you
Besides thats where all of your great memories are
So why not revist them
http://www.livejournal.com/users/_____lovingyou/9290.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4586.html?thread=73962#t73962
http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4660.html?thread=85812#t85812
http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10895.html?thread=170127#t170127
http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10258.html?thread=162578#t162578
All the great memories that you have had
I obvesily mean nothing and dont matter so why hold on
Or are you being like most shallow women?
So what do you think about this
Or you dont have to take me seriously like normal
I would never bother you
I would never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never felt failed to fail
Pain... (x3)
You know you're right (x3)
I´m so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let's talk about someone else
Steaming, soon begins to melt
Nothin' really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it'll come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never felt so well
Pain... (x5)
You know you're right (x12)
You know you're right (x4)
Pain...
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[29 May 2005|10:02pm] |
Well today was boring. all i did was goto best buy to get the new audioslave cd then to hollister/AE to get cloths umm thats about it
Later at 8ish Angela.. Emily... Erica.. and Kimberly.. came over for some hot tub fun.. it was pretty fun it made my day 10012148170287502348953 times better we talked about who i hate (rachel knows) um some friends of hers some stories and that stuff
well rachel hopefully you had as much fun as i did
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[29 May 2005|07:40pm] |
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one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go
i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go
no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me...
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[26 May 2005|09:07pm] |
i guess life alway can get worse right?
A woman could cut off your penis while you're sleeping and toss it out the window of a moving car.
yeah dont forget
Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment.
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[26 May 2005|06:24pm] |
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It's been a long day at the bottom of the hill,
she died of a broken heart.
She told me I was living in the past,
drinking from a broken glass.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to face the cold.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to travel home.
I walked down to the other end of the day,
just to catch those last few waves.
I held out my hand and slowly waved goodbye,
I turned now my eyes up to the sky.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to face the cold.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to travel home.
She'll come back to me. (She'll come back to me.)
She'll come back to me. (She'll come back to me.)
All alone in this mystery.
She'll come back to me. I held out my hands into the light and I watched it die,
I know that I was part to play.
My god, my time to die.
Never want to spend my life alone.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to face the cold.
I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),
now I (now I) try to travel home.
my life sucks like no other.. rachel have fun with josh and all your so called best friends expect emily cause i like her
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| Senoirs... Bye :'( |
[25 May 2005|11:20pm] |
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Thats MegHan! with an H in my background.. She is my senoir friend and now shes gone from my accounting class and im sad but hopefully we can chill at CMU! woo
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[23 May 2005|06:31am] |
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Lovin Rachelyn |
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have you ideas on how this life ends?
checked your hands and studied the lines
have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the
light?
seems that needlessly it's getting harder
to find an approach and a way to live
are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?
you can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh
or you can come to terms and realize
you're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh
makes much more sense to live in the present tense
"have you ideas on how this life ends?"
I think i might have an idea.. rachel ask me... i dont really want to say it in this
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[22 May 2005|04:20pm] |
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I hate myself and i want to die |
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Happy endings are only in the books you read...
always keep that in mind
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[19 May 2005|10:37pm] |
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DEAD |
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I hate myself and i want to die |
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Hmm am I a slut?
(i think rachel can answer)
hahhaha
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| BLEH! |
[17 May 2005|03:55pm] |
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do you see the way that tree bends?
does it inspire?
leaning out to catch the sun's rays
a lesson to be applied
are you getting something out of this all encompassing trip?
you can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets, oh
or you can come to terms and realize
you're the only one who can't forgive yourself, oh
makes much more sense to live in the present tense
have you ideas on how this life ends?
checked your hands and studied the lines
have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the
light?
seems that needlessly it's getting harder
to find an approach and a way to live
are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?
you can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh
or you can come to terms and realize
you're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh
makes much more sense to live in the present tense
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