urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka Until it's fucking gone Jonny B 2005-08-20T03:04:44Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:17657 2005-08-20T03:01:16Z 2005-08-20T03:04:44Z Outshined- Soundgarden What a fucking good song yeah so i havent done anything in the last few weeks. I got my senior picture about 2 weeks ago so i get my proofs soon and pick what pictures i like and dont like. Yeah rachel went to SC so i havent seen her since wendsday but o well its kinda nice getting away and doin my own thing for a change. Um i work alot so im never home for 2 weeks im working about 70 hours about so i should get a nice paycheck sooner or later. Tomorrow i got work till 3 and a party on a boat at 9 so that should be somewhat fun hangin out with ariel since she is pretty sweet. she likes to mess around with me at work and stuff and get me all wet.. bastard.. lol but yeah emily trapp is the hottest most cool girl ever.. <br /><br />6th months... Sept. 6th woo first day of school!<br /><br />Cant wait to go back with all the gay sophmore drama i get caught into. somehow ill get stuck in the middle but who the fuck cares eh? lol im canadian <br /><br />Um . Fuck <br /><br />The dawn is breaking<br />A light shining through<br />You're barely waking<br />And I'm tangled up in you<br />Yeah<br /><br />I'm open, you're closed<br />Where I follow, you'll go<br />I worry I won't see your face<br />Light up again<br /><br />Even the best fall down sometimes<br />Even the wrong words seem to rhyme<br />Out of the doubt that fills my mind<br />I somehow find<br />You and I collide urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:17340 2005-07-29T04:41:31Z 2005-07-29T04:41:31Z Aneurysm- Nirvana Yeah i dont know why i am updating again but.. I am<br /><br />Ughh nothing has happen in the last time i updated execpt with rachel and her beauty thing. i dont really know anything else other than rachel and i fight every day. But i had hockey to nights in a row and today was the last game and we lost but it doesnt matter.. but the 2nd to last game i hit so many people it was funny and got a penailty for one of them cause i nailed the kid like no other. Rachel and emily went to that game but maybe watched 10 mins. Why even go to watch it that long? No idea but i was mad cause i tried hitting people and i hit the post like 10 times but rachel wouldnt know that cause she didnt watch. I try to do good things but looks like that isnt good enough. <br /><br /><br />O and someone hit my car and it dented there whole front of the car and i didnt get a scatch at all. she didnt have her headlights on and i pulled out and she hit the back of my explorer so yeah and then found out she lived near me in oakhurst.. Lol that was kind of funny. <br /><br /><br />Senoir pictures commin up too i might post them if you want to see em. <br /><br /><br />I don't care if I'm old<br />I don't mind if I don't have a mind<br />Get away from your home<br />I'm afraid of a ghost<br /><br />Even if you have<br />Even if you need<br />I don't mean to stare<br />We don't have to breed<br />We can plant a house<br />We can build a tree<br />I don't even care<br />We could have all three<br />She said urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:16911 2005-07-06T00:54:47Z 2005-07-06T00:54:47Z I am acucally going to start writing meaningful things in here. Maybe a good song here and there only if they are good ones. No more of the whiny bullshit i used to write complaining about shit and everything else. I might just make a new LJ anyways well see. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:16683 2005-06-28T13:12:36Z 2005-06-28T13:38:36Z Name this song I will never bother you<br />I will never promise to<br />I will never follow you<br />I will never bother you<br /><br />I will move away from here<br />You won't be afraid of fear<br />No thought was put into this<br />I always knew it would come to this<br /><br />Things have never been so swell<br />I have never failed to fail<br /><br />Pain<br />You know you're right urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:16572 2005-06-27T21:38:52Z 2005-06-27T21:38:52Z My Wave <font size="-1"> <b>MY WAVE</b> </font> <p> <font size="-1">Take, if you want a slice<br>If you want a piece<br>If it feels alright<br><br>Break, if you like the sound<br>If it gets you up<br>If it brings you down<br><br>Share, if it makes you sleep<br>If it sets you free<br>If it helps you breathe<br><br>Don't come over here<br>And piss on my gate<br>Save it just keep it<br>Off my wave<br><br>Cry, if you want to cry<br>If it helps you see<br>If it clears your eyes<br><br>Hate, if you want to hate<br>If it keeps you safe<br>If it makes you brave<br><br>Pray, if you want to pray<br>If you like to kneel<br>If you like to lay<br><br>Don't come over here<br>And piss on my gate<br>Save it just keep it<br>Off my wave<br><br>Keep it off my wave<br>Keep it off my wave<br>Keep it off my wave<br><br>My wave<br><br>Cry, if you want to cry<br>If it helps you see<br>If it clears your eyes<br><br>Hate, if you want to hate<br>If it keeps you safe<br>If it makes you brave<br><br>Take, if you want a slice<br>If you want a piece<br>If it feels alright<br><br>Don't come over here<br>And piss on my gate<br>Save it just keep it<br>Off my wave<br><br>Keep it off my wave<br>Keep it off my wave<br><br>My wave<br> </font></p> <p><font size="-1"><br> </font></p> <p><font size="-1">This song describes how I feel and i love that part when its say "hate, if you wanna hate,if it makes you safe, if it makes you brave." sure you can hate me but<span style="font-weight: bold;"> i dont care</span>, just leave me the hell alone. people can hide behind how coward they are and waste thier time trying to make your life a living hell. we live in a selfish world these days, you would think people are ocupied with thinking about themselfs listening to thier own voice that they even have time in their "busy" schedule to judge you. this is my song because it tells all of you who want to try to rain on my parade, fuck off because ive got who i am and you'll never ruin that. "keep it off my wave"<br> </font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:16329 2005-06-20T04:36:32Z 2005-06-20T04:44:21Z I caught a glimpse of something. <br />I've looked for it ever since. <br />I went around the world, searched in all the shadows. <br />And there is something out there in the darkness, something terrifying, something that will not stop until it gets revenge. <br /><br /><br />Me...<br /><br /><br /><br />Now you must journey inwards... to what you really fear... it's inside you... there is no turning back. The will is everything. If you make yourself more than just a man, if you devote yourself to an ideal, you become something else entirely. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:16095 2005-06-18T14:52:13Z 2005-06-18T15:11:21Z Look at me now<br />Just sittin here by myself<br />And I think you found someone else<br />Now I'm gonna have to find<br />A way to put the bottle down<br />And why can't you see<br />That I'm drowning in a pool of misery<br /><br />I'm always afraid<br />That you're gone<br />Away from me<br />I'm always afraid<br />That you're lost in somebody<br />I'm always afraid<br />That you're gone<br />Away from me<br />I'm always afraid<br />That you're lost urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:15807 2005-06-09T03:46:00Z 2005-06-09T03:46:00Z my life is ruined now :( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:15481 2005-05-30T14:15:30Z 2005-05-30T14:15:30Z You know your right... Nirvana The more we fight.. <br />The more we argue.. <br />The more we yell, scream, and lie... <br /><br />The more I start to question <br /><br /><br />Why am i still here?<br />Why do i put up with it?<br />How come no one else is like this?<br />How come we act diffrent then we used too?<br />What if she goes back to her old ways?<br />What if she gets hurt doing it?<br /><br />The more I question the farther apart we go<br /><br />What if..<br />These two words just make me want to let go.<br /><br />The more i start thinking about that <br />The more i dislike who you were <br />Regrets are things of the past<br />If you dont regret them then<br />Why arent you the same person as you where before?<br />Something must you of wanted to change<br />Unless you didnt change and doing the one thing<br />Putting on the "fake" mask<br />If you really want to be there person you were before<br />Be my guest<br />Do all the things of your past<br />Go ahead and turn the button on<br /><br />Just think of all that your missing out<br /><br />I think you are happier being there than now <br />So.. Go <br />By all means go<br /><br />Thats were most of your friends are anyways<br /><br />I rather not bring it up about the past<br />But how come it always comes up?<br />Your "friends" arent as nice as they seem to be<br />And you know that <br />Just like at Lunch what happens you can already guess<br /><br />Just know that you can go back to your parting days<br />And I will just give up and look for someone<br />Who can care about life and not throw it away on stupid things<br /><br />You even told me you dont want to do any of those things<br />since of certian problems <br />But if you really want to <br />You are just hurting yourself in the long run<br /><br />Thats why there is always a trust issue<br /><br />You honestly cant tell me that there is no reason why<br />some people dont trust you.<br /><br />Ill even tell you <br />Call me up and ill explain it to you<br /><br />Besides thats where all of your great memories are<br />So why not revist them<br /><br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/_____lovingyou/9290.html">http://www.livejournal.com/users/_____lovingyou/9290.html</a><br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4586.html?thread=73962#t73962">http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4586.html?thread=73962#t73962</a><br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4660.html?thread=85812#t85812">http://www.livejournal.com/users/___x___happy/4660.html?thread=85812#t85812</a><br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10895.html?thread=170127#t170127">http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10895.html?thread=170127#t170127</a><br /><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10258.html?thread=162578#t162578">http://www.livejournal.com/users/x___wishes/10258.html?thread=162578#t162578</a><br /><br /><br />All the great memories that you have had<br /><br />I obvesily mean nothing and dont matter so why hold on<br />Or are you being like most shallow women?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />So what do you think about this<br /><br />Or you dont have to take me seriously like normal<br /><br />I would never bother you<br />I would never promise to<br />I will never follow you<br />I will never bother you<br />Never speak a word again<br />I will crawl away for good<br /><br />I will move away from here<br />You won't be afraid of fear<br />No thought was put into this<br />I always knew it would come to this<br />Things have never been so swell<br />I have never felt failed to fail<br />Pain... (x3)<br />You know you're right (x3)<br /><br />I´m so warm and calm inside<br />I no longer have to hide<br />Let's talk about someone else<br />Steaming, soon begins to melt<br />Nothin' really bothers her<br />She just wants to love herself<br /><br />I will move away from here<br />You won't be afraid of fear<br />No thought was put into this<br />I always knew it'll come to this<br />Things have never been so swell<br />I have never felt so well<br />Pain... (x5)<br />You know you're right (x12)<br />You know you're right (x4)<br />Pain... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:15171 2005-05-30T02:06:31Z 2005-05-30T02:06:31Z Well today was boring. all i did was goto best buy to get the new audioslave cd then to hollister/AE to get cloths umm thats about it<br /><br /><br /><br />Later at 8ish Angela.. Emily... Erica.. and Kimberly.. came over for some hot tub fun.. it was pretty fun it made my day 10012148170287502348953 times better we talked about who i hate (rachel knows) um some friends of hers some stories and that stuff <br /><br /><br /><br />well rachel hopefully you had as much fun as i did urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:15084 2005-05-29T23:40:48Z 2005-05-29T23:51:13Z one more kiss could be the best thing <br />one more lie could be the worst<br />and all these thoughts are never resting <br />and you're not something i deserve<br /><br />in my head there's only you now<br />this world falls on me<br />in this world, there's real and make believe<br />this seems real to me<br /><br />you love me, but you dont know who i am<br />i'm torn between this life i lead<br />and where i stand<br />you love me, but you don't know who i am<br />so let me go<br />let me go<br /><br />i dream we head to what i hope for<br />and i turn my back on loving you<br />how could this love be a good thing<br />when i know what i'm going through<br /><br />in my head there's only you now<br />this world falls on me<br />in this world, there's real and make believe<br />this seems real to me<br /><br />you love me, but you dont know who i am<br />i'm torn between this life i lead<br />and where i stand<br />you love me, but you dont know who i am<br />so let me go, just let me go<br /><br />no matter how hard i try<br />i cant escape these things inside<br />i know, i know<br />but all the pieces fall apart<br />you will be the only one who knows<br />who knows<br /><br />you love me, but you dont know who i am<br />i'm torn between this life i lead<br />and where i stand, <br />you love me, but you don't know who i am<br />so let me go<br />just let me go<br /><br />you love me, but you dont<br />you love me, but you dont<br />you love me, but you dont know who i am<br /><br />you love me, but you dont<br />you love me, but you dont<br />you love me, but you dont know me... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:14757 2005-05-27T03:06:21Z 2005-05-27T03:07:03Z <img src="http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y19/digisocka/faggot.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /><img src="http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y19/digisocka/noob.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /><br />thought these might be funny (Thanks steve) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:14427 2005-05-27T01:09:06Z 2005-05-27T01:09:06Z i guess life alway can get worse right?<br /><br /><br />A woman could cut off your penis while you're sleeping and toss it out the window of a moving car. <br /><br /><br />yeah dont forget <br /><br />Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:14240 2005-05-26T22:25:03Z 2005-05-26T22:25:03Z I hate myself It's been a long day at the bottom of the hill,<br />she died of a broken heart.<br />She told me I was living in the past,<br />drinking from a broken glass.<br /><br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to face the cold.<br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to travel home.<br /><br />I walked down to the other end of the day,<br />just to catch those last few waves.<br />I held out my hand and slowly waved goodbye,<br />I turned now my eyes up to the sky.<br /><br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to face the cold.<br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to travel home.<br /><br />She'll come back to me. (She'll come back to me.)<br />She'll come back to me. (She'll come back to me.)<br />All alone in this mystery.<br />She'll come back to me. I held out my hands into the light and I watched it die,<br />I know that I was part to play.<br />My god, my time to die.<br />Never want to spend my life alone.<br /><br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to face the cold.<br />I'm alone (I never wanna be alone),<br />now I (now I) try to travel home. <br /><br /><br />my life sucks like no other.. rachel have fun with josh and all your so called best friends expect emily cause i like her urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:13714 2005-05-26T03:21:28Z 2005-05-26T03:22:28Z Thats MegHan! with an H in my background.. She is my senoir friend and now shes gone from my accounting class and im sad but hopefully we can chill at CMU! woo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:13537 2005-05-25T02:25:50Z 2005-05-25T02:25:50Z bearshkin dadageekinhimersmith urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:13269 2005-05-23T10:32:46Z 2005-05-23T10:32:46Z have you ideas on how this life ends?<br />checked your hands and studied the lines<br />have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the<br />light?<br />seems that needlessly it's getting harder<br />to find an approach and a way to live<br />are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?<br />you can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh<br />or you can come to terms and realize<br />you're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh<br />makes much more sense to live in the present tense<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />"have you ideas on how this life ends?"<br /><br /><br /><br />I think i might have an idea.. rachel ask me... i dont really want to say it in this urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:12881 2005-05-22T20:23:11Z 2005-05-22T20:31:41Z I hate myself and i want to die Happy endings are only in the books you read...<br /><br /><br />always keep that in mind urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:12613 2005-05-20T02:38:34Z 2005-05-20T02:40:52Z I hate myself and i want to die <table style="font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2" align="center"><form action="http://memegen.net/viewmeme.pl?meme=1066614940" method="POST"><tr><th colspan="2" bgcolor="#000000"><font color="#DDDD88">What do people really think about you?<br /> by Raven319</font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Name</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="Name" value="Jonanthan" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Age</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="Age" value="17" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">favorite song</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #000000;"><input type="text" name="favorite song" value="I hate myself and i want to die" size="20"></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Parents think</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">You&#39;re an angel</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Strangers think</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">You&#39;re hot</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#333333" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">Friends think</span></td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA" style="border: 1px solid black;"><span style="color: #FFFFFF;">You&#39;re a slut</span></td></tr><input type="hidden" name="un" value="Raven319"><input type="hidden" name="meme" value="1066614940"><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><input type="submit" value="Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!"></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" align="center" bgcolor="#000000"><font size="-1" color="#FFFFFF"><a href="http://memegen.net/"><font color="#DDDD88">Quiz created with MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></form></table><br /><br /><br /><br />Hmm am I a slut?<br /><br />(i think rachel can answer)<br /><br />hahhaha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:12508 2005-05-17T19:56:07Z 2005-05-17T20:15:00Z present tense do you see the way that tree bends? <br />does it inspire?<br />leaning out to catch the sun's rays<br />a lesson to be applied<br />are you getting something out of this all encompassing trip?<br />you can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets, oh<br />or you can come to terms and realize<br />you're the only one who can't forgive yourself, oh<br />makes much more sense to live in the present tense<br />have you ideas on how this life ends? <br />checked your hands and studied the lines<br />have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the<br />light?<br />seems that needlessly it's getting harder <br />to find an approach and a way to live<br />are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?<br />you can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh<br />or you can come to terms and realize<br />you're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh<br />makes much more sense to live in the present tense urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:12180 2005-05-10T02:31:07Z 2005-05-10T02:31:07Z Stay Away yeah i havent updated in ages..<br /><br /><br />well ill just tell about today.. nothin first hour only pumpin iron.. second hour got called down to the attendence office for saturday school. found out it was 4th hour for 4 hours of it... GOOD JOB RACHEL!.. lol 3rd.. just LA. now 4th i said i would do ANYTHING for him.. so on wensday im bringin him a $5 hot and ready.. and he can goto lake feton anytime he wants when i move they..(or when my parents do) so yeah.. 5th hour fell asleep.. 6th hour i was out of it we had a review i didnt know ANYTHING AT ALL im going to fail the 10 page test tomorrow..<br /><br />rachel came over.. she was interjectic(sp?) um then took her home for cheerleading try outs.. then i got into the hot tub with angela and chris and my bro um thats about it.. o yeah i threw a frog at angela and she freaked.. my bad it wasnt a frog it was a toad.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:11937 2005-04-27T23:15:54Z 2005-04-27T23:15:54Z hahhahah i found out there is double advil hahaha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:11642 2005-04-24T22:32:52Z 2005-04-24T22:32:52Z You know your right... Nirvana ugh fun weekend... kinda.. friday.. went to rachels so she could clean her room.. then went back to school at 4ish to get her bathing suits.. then went to my house and pretty much sat there and "watched movies" lol then we went into the hot tub with chris and matt. that was fun but i didnt like chris or matt being there.. they were interuping... so after i took rachel back to her house and went to bed..<br /><br />Saturday.. well i woke up late for fishing like 6:40ish and we went fishing on lotus lake! yeah so we rowwed out there and it wasnt bad at first but then it got windy and it snowed like crazy. then we noticed that there was 2 holes in the boat and water was leaking in.. then our boat was 3 inchs away from the water while we were in the middle of the lake. we got to the shore lucky and dumped it out(i think we landed on rachels (friends?) lake house) and dumped the water. we came back and then we went to buffalo wild wings for like 4 hours after i went got rachel and we watched movies for awhile and went back into the hot tub while it was snowing. that was REAL fun at the end ;) then we watched the end of jurassic park 3 on tv and i took her home..<br /><br />sunday.. alex came over around 1 uhh hot tub for awhile.. ate dinner.. nothin else.. rachel had to goto some funeral thing? i didnt think they did them on sundays.. but yeah <br /><br />well it was a fun weekend while it lasted.. but next weeks my b-day! thats going to be pretty sweet.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:11412 2005-04-22T02:10:40Z 2005-04-22T02:10:40Z guuitar Hot Tub... Wooo pretty sweet and some guitar... Angela we are going to jam when your guitar comes in the mail its going to be sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:digisocka:11183 2005-04-19T01:31:47Z 2005-04-19T01:31:47Z Im going to be swimming in my pool and you arent music My pool is going to open tomorrow... Can anyone say pool basketball and volleyball?